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NaNoWriMo update

Pink update.

 

As of yesterday, the 28th of November, I am officially done with NaNoWriMo 2016!

That’s right! I’m done with the 50K words that I said I’ll put into my novel Pink during November… this means that Pink will be completely done in a couple of days.
(I’m aiming for between 55K and 60K total words in the end)
So now that I’m done giving you the news I can honestly say that this has been one hell of month.

I started this month in a bit of a tight knot – which is my way of saying that I was emotionally exhausted and busy with exams.
Truth be told when NaNoWriMo started this month I was scared to write.
You see I tried writing Pink earlier this year and it didn’t work so I scratched it and decided to give it a retry. When November hit I was suddenly afraid that it will fall flat again and that I would end up with absolutely nothing (writing wise) to show for this year.

My friend messaged me that day so we could do word sprints and suddenly despite the fear I found myself writing.

Imagine being underwater for too long. Your lungs start to burn and your heart is racing in your chest, because you know you’re drowning. Then suddenly you are dragged back to the surface and you take that first deep breath of fresh air. You are breathing again. Slowly you let yourself relax. You’re not drowning anymore.

I’m over dramatising this a bit but that’s how it felt to be writing again.

I wrote 7000 words on that first day.
Say it with me now!
Seven. Thousand. Words.

(I think that’s insane for someone who considered herself in a slump)

After writing it I messaged my boyfriend and told him that I love writing.
I told him that it reminded me why I wanted to be a writer.

 
The month has passed since then and there have been a lot of ups and downs.
I’ve deleted a bunch of words. I nearly gave up twice. I posted the first chapters on wattpad. I wrote a lot of updates. I got ahead of the word count. I fell behind on my word count. I did a lot, you see?

Now it’s all behind me. I’m free of NaNoWriMo!

With that said, I realize that I’m not free from Pink though… there is still a lot I need to do for this book and finishing it is at the top of that list.

 

So that’s what I’m going to do right now... and I’ll keep you updated until I’m completely done with it.
Then afterwards I’ll probably keep you updated on my next novel and the one after that, because that’s what writers do… we write.

 
If you’re a writer and your NaNo novel isn’t done yet then go sit down and write. Even if you aren’t done when November ends, just keep writing.
Just keep writing because that’s what you do.


Tell me how it’s going with your novel. Are you done yet? Are you done with NaNoWriMo like me?
All comments welcome!

NaNoWriMo day 21/22 – another step forward

I actually published the first parts of my work in progress ‘Pink’ on WattPad tonight.
Just a cover, description and the first four chapters.

It was a pretty hard thing to do, because so far I’ve always kept my writing to myself. This is my fourth novel and yet it will be the first that anyone will ever read.

I was hesitant to put it out there, after all it’s far from my best work, but as I sat down and thought about it, it all came down to taking a step forward.
I can’t expect my writing to grow better in isolation – and so with the lyrics of ‘let it go’ from the movie ‘Frozen’ repeating themselves in my head I pressed publish. Now it’s out there, just waiting for someone to read it.

The funny thing is that I don’t know if anyone will even read it. I have a lot of people lined up and telling me that I should let them know when they can read something of mine… but this might not be the best start up novel.
My favourite genre to write in is Fantasy and it’s what I’m best at. Yet here I am posting a paranormal romance novel that takes place in a modern society.
Why?
I’m not certain… am I allowed to blame my sister’s influence? Probably not.

So here I am, writing this post in literarily the middle of the night (12 pm as I read it) and telling you that I’ve taken another step in this journey to become a writer. I just hope it’s in the right direction.

(I’ll give another link and descriptions to the novel, tomorrow when I’m a little more awake.)

 


Word count: 35001
Motivation: high but tired

NaNoWriMo day 17

It’s official,  this love story that I’m trying to write is awful!  

Yes I am at that stage of NaNoWriMo and it annoys me.  

For those who has been following my progress this month, let me clarify something right now.  I am busy with a rewrite of a story I tried to write in the beginning of the year.  

I’m rewriting it because I didn’t like the direction it went in the first try…  Well this second try isn’t much better, especially in the romance category. 
My love interests Peggy and Benjamin is simply too happy/stable in their relationship.  There is some conflict going on here sure but not quite like in a proper  romance novel

Sure Peggy’s story I going really well but that’s supposed to be a subplot! 

What ever.  I’m just going to finish this and see what I get…
Sorry for the bummer update.  I hope t he t next one will be better.  

Right now I’m at 29397 words but my writing speed has definitely been hurt by the amazing vacation I’m on.  
How about you? Any plot issues so far?  Or perhaps genre issues? 

All comments welcome! 

NaNoWriMo day 15 

This is going to be a short post again because just like in the beginning of the month I’m writing posts on my phone.  
I’m not exactly at home right now and instead enjoying a whole bunch of adventures sewed into one week long vacation.  I plan on sharing photos an stories later on but right now I just want to tell you that I’m growing all the more nervous about this novel.  

My word count is still a little ahead and I  have quite a bit of tension and conflict flowing at the moment but at the same time I’m worried that it’s the single worst thing I’ve ever written.  

(added stuff: I’m properly showing off just how amazing my characters is in the pieces I’m writing now) 

My main problem is that I don’t have a strong central goal and more tiny goals that stretch two or three scenes.  This means that I have to go sit down and make sure my ending is strong enough because otherwise I’ll be really disappointed in myself.  

So that’s my update for now! My word count is at 27905 and I hope to reach the next goal which is something like 28600 next (not sure about this) 
How is  it going with you?  Are you gearing up toward your ending yet? 

NaNoWriMo day 11- soppy late nights and injuries

Here’s the gist, last night the power went out and I decided to read (Miss Peregrine’s Home for peculiar children) and when the power came back on it was already past midnight but I was so excited for the direction my novel was going in that I decided to write despite the early hour.
I wrote until about 2am and had by that time finished another’s day’s word count.
I’m as tired as a log now, of course because I still had to wake up today but I don’t regret it at all!
Some of what I wrote is a little sappy because I was tired and it was some of my more romantic scenes that I had to write. Reading over it isn’t exactly a pleasant experience but it still works with my story so I’m keeping all of it 
I have to do some math now though because I started with 18300 words yesterday and I’m currently at 23725… That means I wrote… 5425 words yesterday of which 1634 was done between 12pm and 2 am.
That’s my second highest word count for a single day this year coming in second only to the first day when I wrote around 7000 words.

The best part is that what I wrote is actually really significant to my story and to me and was really fun to write as I got to do some research on wheelchairs (sorry about the spoiler) and medical conundrums.

 


Has there been any injuries in your novel so far? How did you go about writing it realistically?

For me I just based a lot of it on my own hospital and recovery from operation experience but I would like to know what you do.

Any comments and questions welcome!

NaNoWriMo day 10- exciting new developments!

I’m so excited! The love interest in my story is finally getting his chance to shine.
Without spoiling too much: Benjamin (love interest) was seriously injured in an accident during my inciting incident and had been pretty depressed because of it but after snapping at Peggy (main character) he realized that he was letting the injury defeat him so now he’s decided that he wasn’t going to let it. This means that I now get to write about how stubborn and happy he is and then about every other reason that Peggy has fallen for him.
I get to use it to add some dynamics to their relationship and I get to finally make use of some side characters that has been playing only small roles so far.

 
I’m excited and hope to tell you some more about it later (perhaps I’ll share a drawing of him as well)

My word count for the record is around 18300 which is a little ahead of the NaNoWriMo goals and means I’m writing a decent 2000 words a day.

 

Now the question is how is it going with your story? Is your characters determined or hesitant regarding the troubles they’re facing.
All questions and comments welcome!

NaNoWriMo day 9 – and my novel’s cover!

Look at what I made for my novel!

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It’s not quite what I wanted but I did it with limited resources and I actually really like the soft colours and so on. (Also I’m obsessed with the fonts)

 

I’m a little worried about my story itself because it’s not quite as violent as things I’ve previously written and so I’m afraid that it will be boring or fall flat. Don’t get me wrong I’ve got conflict all over the place, there is conflict between characters and my two main love interests are conflicted about whether they should be together or not.
I’ve got goals and plots and plans for everyone but I’m just… worried.

Anyway the official word count is 17385 and I plan to reach past 18000 by the end of today.

I would like to say thank you to all the people who have been supporting me this past week and who has taken a genuine interest in my story. It means the world to me!


What’s your word count this NaNoWriMo? Have you created a cover for your story yet, or am I the only one?
All comments welcome

NaNoWriMo day 8- why I write

It’s day eight of NaNoWriMo and I’m at 15000 words right now.
For me this is that part of the month when that fear sets in and my head keeps whispering nasty things to me.

Why are you writing this? It’s bad writing. You are writing outside of your normal genre and it’s crap.

These are the things that my head whispers to me every now and then as I write.

The thing is that the whispers might be true, there is a chance that this is the worst novel I’ve ever written… there is also a chance that it’s the best one, I’m not really a good judge for these things.
Now the thing is that I’m not the only writer plagued by these kinds of thoughts, especially not during NaNoWriMo. It’s a part in the writer’s journey and I fully believe that if you don’t stop to wonder if you’re really qualified to write a story, at least once, then you aren’t doing it right.

That doesn’t mean that we as writers should let the fear keep us from writing. I recently found the most amazing advice on how to deal with this fear and that is this, remember why you started.

To be honest with you, right now I’m not too happy with myself. I don’t feel I did good with my exams this year, my blog’s stat’s are rather pathetic these days and I can’t seem to get into the holiday mood at all, meaning that I’m still stressed, despite the fact that there is nothing to be stressed about.

So I consider that advice I just mention.

Remember why you started.

It seems so easy, after all many of us have good reasons for why we do things, but for some reason my initial reaction to the advice was confusion. I have been working really hard on a lot of things… but it’s been so long since I started them that I couldn’t remember why I started.
So I sat down and I created a list of reasons to write. (If you are also a writer this might help inspire you)

Reasons to write

• I genuinely love it.
• You can use writing to connect people and make them understand.
• Writing has meditative qualities and helps me relax
• My writing has the chance to affect someone’s life one day.
• I love connecting strings
• I adore my own characters.
• Writing has put amazing people in my life.
• Writing is the still my passion even if I’m tired.
• I absolutely love learning new things about writing and then teaching it to others.
• Writing helps me work out some junk in my heart.

 
Those are my reasons for writing and I with that I’m encouraged to keep writing.
Now tell me why do you write? Do you sometimes feel you need motivation?
All comments welcome!

Character introduction: Peggy

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I’m so excited! I finally get to introduce one of my characters to you and she really is one of my favourites! When I planned this post I wasn’t exactly sure how I’m going to be introducing her to you…
So thinking about how I’m going to go about this I remember having read somewhere that there are 36 questions that will scientifically make people fall in love. (A bit of a oversimplification I think) So I figured those questions can make great interview questions to introduce this character to you.

I’m just going to jump in and get started here but quick disclaimer, none of these answers are my own and they are purely how my character would answer them.

So let me introduce to you Peggy Carter, main character and the banshee with pink hair.

 
1. Given the choice of anyone in the world who would you want as a dinner guest?

I’m not really certain I haven’t really fantasised about spending time with anyone lately. The only person who I actually enjoy spending time with, I already see every day. I think I would like to have dinner with Benjamin because he’s the only one I’m really comfortable with but I’m not sure that’s what you wanted to know…
Otherwise I’d probably go for Robbie Amel (the arrow)

2. Would you like to be famous, in what way?

When I was little, I used to fantasise about being a famous singer but that’s not really realistic. I don’t want to be famous anymore, in fact I’d enjoy simply being left alone. It would be nice if my online business got some more attention though, but since I work under a ghost name that wouldn’t really count as being famous.

3. Before making a telephone call do you ever practice what you’re going to say? Why?
Yes! I definitely do this, it helps keeps me speaking even if I’m a little nervous.

4. What would constitute a “perfect day” for you?

The perfect day for me would be waking up happy and just going to the cafe like I always do. From there I think I would like Benjamin to take me somewhere new. I don’t like going new places on my own but if he is there, I think it could be a lot of fun.

5. When did you last sing to yourself? To someone else?
Last time I sang to myself was this morning, I was singing along with the radio in my room. The last time I sang for someone else was more a recording really, I had to write some lyrics for a client and then recorded it for them.

6. If you could live to the age of 90 and retain either the mind or body of a 30 year old for the last 60 years of your life, which would you want?

I’d say mind because I’m already unfit anyway and really most of what I do require my head over my body. Also it actually scares me a little to lose yourself when you grow older, I wouldn’t want that.

7. DO you have a secret hunch about how you’re going to die?

That’s a really sucky question. Not one that I’m really comfortable with to be honest. There was a time I could put either murdered or suicide down as my answer but I don’t want to think like that anymore. I don’t know what Benjamin did to me but I actually really want to believe that I’m going to die at an old age, with happy memories to think on and not believe that I’m going to be caught one night and killed.

8. Gotta skip this one because it involves you more than Peggy.

 
9. For what in your life do you feel most grateful?

Benjamin. I’m certain I would have ended my own life quite a while back now if he didn’t magically get me to be happy. Just the fact that he made an effort to talk to me, when no one else had in months, meant a lot more than I could ever express.

10. If you could change anything about the way you where raised, what would it be?

I would change the fact that we moved around so much. I think I would have liked growing up in a single home and not constantly moving around as if we were being chased.

11. Tell your partner your life story in four minutes.
Okay here goes… My mother was a banshee and my father is one of the decedents of one of the four Irish clans. She was supposed to be the banshee that screamed when he died but she fell for him instead and they got married. I’m the result.
So being raised a banshee we travelled around a lot and I’m currently settled in South Africa. I was around fifteen when I and my mother got caught by banshee hunters. My mother was killed and I was branded two marks onto each arm as a symbol to the fact that I’m a monster. I was saved before they killed me and soon after banshee hunting was made illegal. My dad stayed maybe two months after that but then he left and soon enough so did all my friends. They said they couldn’t be friends with a monster. So I spent a lot of time alone and eventually grew a little depressed but meeting Benjamin helped a lot and after that I’ve been busy putting myself back together again. I even have a legitimate business now!

12. If you could wake up tomorrow having gained any one quality or ability what would it be?
If only this question was if I could lose one ability. Anyway if I could gain one ability I would want the ability to fly. I think it would be really nice to have that kind of freedom and I’d probably just end up flying forever.

 

Now we do round two.

13. If a crystal ball could tell you the truth about yourself, your life, the future or anything else, what would you want to know?
I would want to see every episode of the DC series in advance because I’m really tired of waiting a week between episodes.

14. Is there something you’ve dreamed of doing for a long time? Why haven’t you done it before?
I like to dream about going to comic convention or something like that. It seems like a lot of fun to cosplay but I haven’t done it yet because I don’t really have the nerve. I’m sure I’d enjoy it if I just went but I’m not sure if people will approve. (not that I’m all that certain who’s approval I really want)

15. What is the greatest accomplishment of your life?
I sold my first song not too long ago and I thought that was pretty awesome.

16. What do you value most in friendship?
I’m not certain… most of my friendships failed. If I think about my friendship with Benjamin though, I think what I value most is comfort or perhaps it’s the opposite and I value how he pushes me out of my comfort zone sometimes. I’m not sure, Benjamin somehow manages to offer me both.

17. What is your most treasured memory?
When I was little I and my parents went to a park. There was one of those see-saws, so me and my mother sat on the one side and my father sat on the other side. It was so much fun as we went up and down, me giggling like the seven year old I was and my parent both laughing.
It was really nice.

18. What is your most terrible memory?
The night me and my mother got kidnapped, I remember my mother using her ‘screams’ to kill the men around us, but they had sticks and they struck at her, forcing her to be silent. I remember seeing those men in their dark clothes while my mother’s screams still rang through the air and thinking: this is it… I’m going to die.

19. If you knew that you would die in one year what would you change in your life?

I like to think that I would stop listening to the fear and maybe travel a bit. I’d like to do some bungee jumping or skydiving. I would want to sing on a stage and not just behind a computer.
I really think that if I was pressed I would stop living with this fear and do some bodacious things.

20. What does friendship mean to you?
Benjamin would be able to say something profound for this one. Or perhaps the answer is in that new Netflix series ‘stranger things’ and friendship can be defined by someone who doesn’t lie to you. To be honest I think what friendship means to me is someone who is there. It sounds stupid sure but in my life almost everyone has left and so I think to me a real friendship is someone who would stay.

21. What roles do love and affection play in your life.
They used to mean a lot to me, when my parents where both still alive and present. Now I’m really sure because the thing is that I’ve learned to live without anyone who outright loves me. I think Benjamin cares for me and he often does nice things which could be seen as affectionate but I’m not always sure why he does it though.

22. Skip this one. It needs you to share what you like with your partner.

23. How close and warm is your family? Do you feel you’re childhood was happier than most other people’s?

If you haven’t been able to tell already, me and my father aren’t close anymore. My childhood was rather nice though and while not perfect I’m certain it was nicer than some other people’s.

24. How do you feel about your relationship with your mother?

When my mother was still alive we had a good relationship. She was a little distant when I asked her about help for being a banshee and I had to figure most of it out on my own, but I’m certain she loved me and I obviously loved her very much. She was a good woman who was strong for her family.

Part 3

25. Skip this one for same reasons as the previous two times.

26. Complete the sentence: “I wish I had someone whom I could share…”

I wish I had someone whom I could share my fears with. I don’t want to burden Benjamin with them seeing as how I’m not sure how fragile our friendship is but I would really love it if I had someone else who would be willing to help me carry these thoughts.

27. If you where to become friends with your partner (you who read this) share what they should know about you.
I don’t trust easily and often withdraw from people so it’s hard to communicate with me. If however you do manage to just stick with me I promise that I will be there for you when you need me. I really do think that I’m there for the people I care for.

28. Skip

29. Share an embarrassing moment in your life.

Why!? Hasn’t this entire thing been bad enough?
Fine then!
There was this one time when I was about twelve when I went to the market with a friend. We were just buying some sweets and there was this man in front of us who just wanted to by a single lollypop but he needed thirty cents. We paid and I realized we have exactly thirty cents left so while we walk out I debate giving it to him. I ask my friend what she thinks and she just rolls her eyes at me and says that if I want to do it I should do it. So grinning I turn around and hand it to the man. He took the money and frowned down at me but I was too proud of myself to care and I walked to where my friend was waiting for me. There she just shook her head and told me I’m an idiot and that I gave the wrong man the money. I felt like such a dimwit! I swear though, they looked exactly alike.

30. When did you last cry in front of a person? By yourself?
I haven’t cried in front of anyone in a while, not even Benjamin. I do have bouts though where I feel really bad and so I would cry myself to sleep. It hasn’t happened in a while, maybe a couple of weeks back now.

31. Skip.
32. What if anything is too serious to be joked about?
I know that a lot of people joke about their pain to make it seem lighter but I think a line should be drawn when it comes to joking about other people’s pain. It’s why I’ve never been a supporter of dark humour. I really don’t think it’s cool to mock other people’s suffering.

33. If you where to die this evening before being able to communicate with anyone what would you regret saying and to who?
Two people, I would regret not saying thank you for Benjamin for how much he’s done for me. I haven’t told him yet because it feels like a weird thing to do, considering he probably doesn’t even realize just how much his acknowledgement of my existence mean to me.
The second thing I’d regret would be not telling my dad just how angry I am at him for leaving me when he did. I think I deserve better than that, he is my dad after all.

34. Your house catches fire. After saving your loved ones and pets you get to dash in one last time to save one more thing what would it be?

Are you trying to make me choose between my laptop and my books? I don’t think I can make that choice!
I guess I’ll have to save the small box in the back of my closet, it contains all my money and some of my mother’s old jewellery but boy will I be upset about my books and laptop.

 
35. Of all the people in your family, who’s death would be the most disturbing?
My dad the only family I have left… and I guess it would be really disturbing because it would mean that he truly did leave me and that I’m not seeing him ever again.

36. Share a personal problem and ask your partner for advice.
Okay, that’s simple, I’m currently building a list of all the ways to fight my fears and depression is there anything specific you would suggest I try? I’m already thinking about picking up exercise.


Okay that was all the questions and it leaves me to mention here again that these answers has nothing to do with me the writer… got it?

 
Now I have to leave you with a question though because it’s pretty much all the questions I left out summed into one.
What one thing would you say you like about Peggy so far?
All comments welcome!

NaNoWriMo day 3

I may or not may not have decided to blog about NaNoWriMo everyday.  I didn’t intend to but so far it’s fun. 

Anyway it’s day three and my last day blogging on my phone for a while, because my exams officially end today! 

Day 2 was really productive for me in the writing area but unfortunately my novel itself barely went up by 1000 words. 

You see what happened was that I wrote 2000 words for my novel then realized I had made a mistake and removed 3000 words. 

So I had to write 4000 words just to get ahead again.  

It’s fine I enjoyed all the writing and then even wrote a 2000 word blog post that will hopefully be done for Monday. 

All I all in the past 2 days I’ve written nearly 12 000 words… Which is insane! 

My numbers seem to be all over the place today.  Sorry about that. 

Tell me yourself:  Are you blogging about NaNoWriMo?  Or otherwise feel free to rant about any troubles you’ve come across so far.  

All comments welcome 🙂