Dear reader

dear reader

Dear reader.
Guess what, I just renewed my premium plan for my blog.
It costs 99 dollars or roughly 1500 rand.
Last year when I bought it, my amazing grandfather had paid. He supported this blog when I couldn’t do it myself.

This year I was determined to pay for it myself.
I had accepted to help my little cousin with his homework and take care of him every day. This made me 300 rand a month. Other than that I won a talent contest in which I won 1000 rand.
I don’t think I can fully explain to you what it means to me to be able to pay for this myself. It sort of sums up all the work and effort I’ve put in this year. I gave my all and for the first time this year I can look at something and see that it paid off. I earned the money and I managed to save it for a good cause.

In this past year, since my domain name became enetteventer.com I managed to gain 102 followers and as a result passed 200 followers a while back now.
I have reached out to other writers including some really great friends both over the internet and face to face.

My dedication to this blog has grown and my appreciation for you has grown as well. It fills me with joy to think that you are reading this and that you like my blog. You might one day like my books even. You are breathing person with your own life and yet here you are taking five minutes to read what I wrote, thank you for that.

Right now my resolve is strengthening because who knows, perhaps you will stick around another year, and perhaps you’ll be joined by yet another 102 new followers.
I certainly hope so.

I needed this good news it’s not been the best week for writing, there has been a few setbacks.
My writing group stood me up the other day and it has taken some thinking to decide on my response to this. I actually had to go think about how I feel about this, and this is what I came up with.
My writing group is something I keep alive because I want other writers in my life. Also because it’s part of how I’m going to become a better writer, just by gathering every second week I get a chance to think and discuss my story and other stories with a group.
I’m not mad that they forgot, slightly disappointed but that’s because I want them to be as dedicated to the group as I am. I know that this is unrealistic and that they are busy leading grownup lives. It’s okay. I’ll just have to be dedicated enough for all of us.
Here is my motto for the group: Even if no one shows I’ll keep showing because this group is something I want and believe in.

I hope I’m not boring you so far, but in case I am I’ll cut this letter short a little and just quickly tell you how it’s going with my actual writing.
I had seen a plot problem and had to delete nearly 5000 words to fix it. This means that my word count is now behind where I wanted it to be but I’m not worried, the whole story will be better because of the change. Also I’m at 17 800 words right now which isn’t too bad 🙂
Now I’d like to hear back from you
How’s it going with you? With your goals and plans? With your mental state?

Sincerely Enette.

A writer’s anxieties.

This is what just happened. I was busy writing something amazing, a blog post that could have changed lives…
So why aren’t you reading that blog post? You aren’t reading that blog post because I deleted it.
My dad just came into my room and reminded me that I have math homework to do as if I don’t know that. My breath caught in my chest and my fingers went numb, not because I’m afraid of doing math or anything just because the same anxiety that been sitting on my shoulders for weeks took effect again. Every time I do math I have anxiety because I’m neglecting this blog and every time I sit down to write something I have anxiety because I really don’t want to waste another weekend on math or get another lecture from a parent on how I should be more productive.
You see, you could have had a life changing post but it is now gone because I just can muster up the strength to write it. Typing this bland post is already making me feel as if I’m being dragged through the mud and as if something heavy has been laid onto my chest.

Now that I told you about my anxieties in a less than grand way I will tell you about my plan for the next few weeks in the same manner.
I’ve told you guys plan after plan I have for this blog in the past few weeks and none of these plans have materialized and really worked, so why would this plan be different? Truth is I have very little faith in this plan of mine and it will probably be useless but I really need something to keep me writing at the moment so I’m going to try it anyway.

The plan.

I’m going to be writing a post series on overcoming anxiety and being productive, the two things I’m proving bad at right now.
I’m sure you can see why this plan is flawed and there is very little hope for it to make it to a second post, but I’m going to try anyway.

 

Why this plan? Who knows, perhaps by writing it all down I can get my work life back in order.
I’m going to be leaving you with this and say sorry for the rather pathetic post. Hopefully I will get my strength back again tonight and type out a better post for next week.
As always don’t be afraid to comment, and I hope that later on I will be helpful to you again.

Busting my way out of writers block and what you can expect in the next few weeks.

Okay so I’m pretty excited for the events of this blog from here of on, for those of you who haven’t noticed I have had a severe case of writers/bloggers block in these past few weeks.
Since I have posted not one, not two but three posts on writers block on this blog you’d think I would have been able to snap out of it rather quickly but to tell you the truth I did the absolute worst thing you can do with writers block.
I ignored it.

restart 2016

So I went and faced the problem and now feel like, while I’m not completely over it yet, I am ready to at least try blogging properly again. I’m going to write a proper post on the different kinds of writers block in the near future most likely and share why exactly I was struggling with writers block but for now let me just give you a little update on what you can expect in the next few weeks.

What I’m going to do is I’m going to be introducing a set of short stories that go with the novel/novella that I wrote in November. (I say novella because I had to cut a lot while editing.)
With these short stories I’m thinking of writing a post series on writing your own short stories.

I want to write a big post in the next month or two on why you should definitely use twitter and how I’m planning on changing my tactics for using twitter.

Now you might be thinking that my head is way too deep into the business part of what I’m doing, if you know me personally you are probably rolling your eyes at serious Enette but I want to clear something up right now. If the writer’s block has taught me anything these past few weeks it’s that I want to get closer to you and actually let more of myself shine through my work not just the business side. So aside from all the twitter post and the short story series you can also expect some insight into what books I’m reading at the moment, some personal insight into the books I’m writing at the moment and mostly I’m just going to go back to what the idea was for this blog at the beginning, pulling you with me as I grow as a writer.
Further on my writing projects themselves are suffering. Editing Imaginary friend is proving a lot more challenging then I had hoped. I haven’t even started the rough draft for Felix and Aida (TBD) but I’m hoping to get to it soon.
I’m planning a new approach for these projects which I’ll probably mention again further on but for now I’m happy to say that is the end of this update.
I hope you guys had a lovely valentine whether you spent it watching Dead pool or cuddling with your cat. If you have been following me for a while now I want to say thank you for your support and if you just stumbled onto this post don’t be afraid to take a look around or drop a comment, I’m always happy to hear from both new people and my regular commenter’s.

Happy Fandompocalypse !