Not half an hour ago I wrote and posted a post about how I recently participated in a talent contest and did not win.
I don’t know it you can read this in the post but when I typed that last part I was deeply sad and feeling really disappointed.
It’s true I was hoping to place in the finals because I felt like I needed a win after months of struggling with my body and my mind.
As I said in the other post though, I didn’t win. But what I didn’t say in the previous post is that I have been supported by my friends and family throughout my life, the past three months and yes this contest.
So this is a thank you letter to every one of those who support me. This is a thank you letter to all of you.
Thank you to my aunt who helped me pick my song and who kept telling me that she loves my voice.
Thank you to my dad who got me the supporting music for my performance, and who came to take a video of me singing.
Thank you to my sister for asking me if I’m ready and joking with me around the kitchen table the night before.
Thank you to everyone who watched and liked the video of the performance on facebook.
Thank you to everyone who left a nice comment, there are so many of you that I can’t name each of you individually.
Thank you to my grandma and cousin who messaged me personally to tell me that they like my song.
Thank you to my boyfriend who despite not being able to come to the performance personally still supported me over the phone.
Thank you to my friend who joined me in joking that I should perform on SA’s got talent.
And finally to the real hero of this show.
Thank you to my mother who not only paid for me to perform but who came to the performance to cheer me on. Thank you to my mother who made me a dress to wear – it is absolutely stunning and I really appreciate the effort so so much. Thank you to my mother who would hum while I’m singing and who tells me I’m the best singer ever.
Thank you to my mother who didn’t simply leave me to feel like a failure when we came back from that contest, despite the fact that I knew I wasn’t going to place.
Thank you to my mother who painted my nails when my left hand wouldn’t do it.
Thank you to my mother who put the video on facebook because she wanted to brag about me.
Thank you for pulling me back to that church today to go find out who won.
Thank you immensely for being my support.
So with immense gratitude in my heart I will once again just stop typing…
(because I’m awkward)